And so it continues...(But not in a good way....well kinda)

So I made another final table of a large MTT field again tonight, the 2:15 3 rebuy. With just under 2500 entrants, I found myself with the chip lead when we monied at 360 people. I lost about 33% of my stack thereafter, but tightened up and played some very solid poker, with nearly all of my steals and resteals being successful. We got down to the final table, and two people were knocked out within 3 hands. Our chip leader had a monsterous stack but was very active. This was my bustout hand, and I felt even with the small reraise, he was very close to folding. If he had just bet 250k on the flop, maybe...but alas:

PokerStars Game #11987923217: Tournament #60482884, $3.00+$0.30 Hold'em No Limit - Level XXVI (25000/50000) - 2007/09/10 - 21:17:34 (ET)
Table '60482884 213' 9-max Seat #5 is the button
Seat 1: RunniN-Scare (7599308 in chips)
Seat 3: Steke (1010924 in chips)
Seat 4: browsef (2106316 in chips)
Seat 5: MrNiphty (955000 in chips)
Seat 7: Juzchiller (3933201 in chips)
Seat 8: emdordje (847251 in chips)
RunniN-Scare: posts the ante 5000
Steke: posts the ante 5000
browsef: posts the ante 5000
MrNiphty: posts the ante 5000
Juzchiller: posts the ante 5000
emdordje: posts the ante 5000
Juzchiller: posts small blind 25000
emdordje: posts big blind 50000
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to MrNiphty [Qs Ks]
RunniN-Scare: raises 50000 to 100000
Steke: folds
browsef: folds
MrNiphty: calls 100000
Juzchiller: folds
emdordje: calls 50000
*** FLOP *** [6s 2h Ts]
emdordje: checks
RunniN-Scare: bets 350000
MrNiphty: raises 500000 to 850000 and is all-in
emdordje: folds
RunniN-Scare: calls 500000
*** TURN *** [6s 2h Ts] [Ac]
*** RIVER *** [6s 2h Ts Ac] [4c]
*** SHOW DOWN ***
RunniN-Scare: shows [6d 8d] (a pair of Sixes)
MrNiphty: shows [Qs Ks] (high card Ace)
Juzchiller said, "wow"
RunniN-Scare collected 2055000 from pot
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot 2055000 | Rake 0
Board [6s 2h Ts Ac 4c]
Seat 1: RunniN-Scare showed [6d 8d] and won (2055000) with a pair of Sixes
Seat 3: Steke folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 4: browsef folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 5: MrNiphty (button) showed [Qs Ks] and lost with high card Ace
Seat 7: Juzchiller (small blind) folded before Flop
Seat 8: emdordje (big blind) folded on the Flop

I was a slight favorite when the money went in, probably 53-47. I picked up 3 more outs on the turn but failed to materialize. SFStandard.

So for the last two weeks Ive played online (and 6 of those days were devoted to live play), I have been tearing up fields, with 4 final tables in solid tournaments. However, my finishes have been 5,5,6,6 respectively, meaning I cant close worth shit. Im not gonna lie, finishing solid was definately on the back of my mind, but I wasnt playing to place higher. I wanted the win. (Or at least a solid stack if we decided to chip chop.)

The big one is so very close, but yet soooo far. I will not quit trying though, I will succeed.